As I'm sprawled out on the couch, bloated from all the christmas cheer and food and being amused at my nieces and nephews antics, I suddenly remembered the name of the memory pill I posted earlier. It's name is "Propranolol", this prompted me to get off my big ass and do a little online research and I rediscovered the article HERE. Yeah, this is some very interesting stuff and I look forward to the day people start abusing the hell out of this drug because I'm weird like that.
As for me, I subscribe the whole "growth is pain, pain is growth" philosophy so I'm not about to pop a pill ease the "trauma" of somebody ridiculing my sense of style, however, I could see how this would benefit people who really need it. Still it makes me wonder how many crimes, particularly sexual assaults will go unprosecuted because the victim popped one of these pills to forget.
oh well...
Monday, December 25, 2006
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
Merry Christmas... I guess.
This is a little christmas e-card I made in collaboration with a local music producer.
It took me about a three weeks to make (story, storyboards, design, animatics, animation,etc)but if I had my way it would've taken one week, but SOMEBODY couldn't make the deadline.
I wanted a more Burton/elfman score and ended up with dawson's creek... oh well.
ANYWAY, check out the card here---> CHRISTMAS E-CARD
It took me about a three weeks to make (story, storyboards, design, animatics, animation,etc)but if I had my way it would've taken one week, but SOMEBODY couldn't make the deadline.
I wanted a more Burton/elfman score and ended up with dawson's creek... oh well.
ANYWAY, check out the card here---> CHRISTMAS E-CARD
The key to good mental health
What I don't get is why some people who see therapist insist on being stubborn assholes about it.I mean they DO realize that the person is getting paid by the hour don't they?
They aren't going to break down and cry because you condensend to them like you may do to a friend of loved one, they aren't going to get on their knees and beg you to talk to them like some weak willed spouse, in fact they are trained to be as emotionally detatched from you as possible otherwise they would go insane from listening to countless crybabies and nutcases.
No, they are there to determine what the fuck is wrong with you and take the steps necessary to help you get better and even if they don't find out what's wrong with you or you insist on being a douchebag, they are still going to cash in your check at the end of the day.
Personally I would handle things a bit differently. I mean obviously something is wrong enough with me to be talking to a shrink in the first place so I may as be as accomodating as I can.
Besides...I'm paying this quack 100 bucks an hour so you can bet your ass I'm gonna get my money's worth. I don't know about those other dumbasses but I can't afford to piss away thousands of dollars a week and even if I could, I wouldn't!
Saving money will be my prime motivation to get better as soon as possible.
I don't care what steps I would have to take. I'll spill every deep dark secret I ever had, I would tell the secrets of everyone I knew, hell, I would create an imaginary friend, make a whole bunch of secrets for him/her and tell them all to the counselor if it led to my recovery.
The sooner the therapist lady/dude can diagnosis my problem and tell me what I need to do or whatever pharmacuticals I need to start poppin', the sooner I can stop stuffing my hard earned money in their overpriced pockets.
That's why being a cheap ass is the key to mental health
They aren't going to break down and cry because you condensend to them like you may do to a friend of loved one, they aren't going to get on their knees and beg you to talk to them like some weak willed spouse, in fact they are trained to be as emotionally detatched from you as possible otherwise they would go insane from listening to countless crybabies and nutcases.
No, they are there to determine what the fuck is wrong with you and take the steps necessary to help you get better and even if they don't find out what's wrong with you or you insist on being a douchebag, they are still going to cash in your check at the end of the day.
Personally I would handle things a bit differently. I mean obviously something is wrong enough with me to be talking to a shrink in the first place so I may as be as accomodating as I can.
Besides...I'm paying this quack 100 bucks an hour so you can bet your ass I'm gonna get my money's worth. I don't know about those other dumbasses but I can't afford to piss away thousands of dollars a week and even if I could, I wouldn't!
Saving money will be my prime motivation to get better as soon as possible.
I don't care what steps I would have to take. I'll spill every deep dark secret I ever had, I would tell the secrets of everyone I knew, hell, I would create an imaginary friend, make a whole bunch of secrets for him/her and tell them all to the counselor if it led to my recovery.
The sooner the therapist lady/dude can diagnosis my problem and tell me what I need to do or whatever pharmacuticals I need to start poppin', the sooner I can stop stuffing my hard earned money in their overpriced pockets.
That's why being a cheap ass is the key to mental health
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Words of wisdom
When you meet someone who would give up absolutely everything to be with you...
take their wallet.
take their wallet.
Sunday, December 10, 2006
Why yes I am a WHORE.
I just opened up a new cafepress store to beta test some future t-shirt designs of mine before I invest the time and money to sell them on my own online store (whenever I have the time).
Normally, the thought of designing christmas shirts makes me wanna hurl, but if it has a somewhat mean spirited/funny twist to it, then I'm all for it! (inspired by my sister and Liz)
You can find the link to the store over on the right hand side where all the other links are. You can't miss it... it's the big ugly yellow box.
If that's too much for you to do then here's a LINK
That's it.
Normally, the thought of designing christmas shirts makes me wanna hurl, but if it has a somewhat mean spirited/funny twist to it, then I'm all for it! (inspired by my sister and Liz)
You can find the link to the store over on the right hand side where all the other links are. You can't miss it... it's the big ugly yellow box.
If that's too much for you to do then here's a LINK
That's it.
Thursday, December 7, 2006
The doctor is back in.
Well I vowed never to do the Dr. Phil thing again, but I just couldn't help myself and gave some valuable relationship advice to a friend via IM:
[13:14] voodazzed: very cool. should be funny fun fun
[13:14] voodazzed: and I'll be sure to say that when I see you
[13:14] voodazzed: as you pretend not to know me
[13:14] ruhkel: ass
[13:17] voodazzed: oh like you don't love it!
[13:17] voodazzed: muwhahaa
[13:17] ruhkel: I so doooo
[13:18] ruhkel: i am going to tell you ahead
[13:18] ruhkel: he is a temptation to me...or have I already told you that?
[13:18] ruhkel: I think that i have
[13:18] voodazzed: yeah, yeah. what's the problem then?
[13:18] ruhkel: it has caused me to chicken out before
[13:18] ruhkel: other times it has been my crazy schedule.
[13:18] voodazzed: oh. you didn't tell me that
[13:19] ruhkel: but there was a time when I was afraid
[13:19] voodazzed: afraid of what?
[13:19] ruhkel: him
[13:19] voodazzed: ???
[13:19] voodazzed: what are you yappin about??
[13:19] ruhkel: yeah.. if there will be a connection...will I behave...
[13:19] ruhkel: all that jazz
[13:20] voodazzed: oh lord. This is one of those situations where you shouldn't think so much.
[13:20] voodazzed: you gotta put all that out of your mind
[13:20] voodazzed: take a chance, within reason of course.
[13:20] voodazzed: just go with the flow and have fun
[13:20] voodazzed: otherwise you'll be all uptight and he'll think you're a crazy woman.
[13:20] ruhkel: thats the problem...I would
[13:20] ruhkel: and I remember hearing you bitch about relationships that end in disaster whenever you did that "go with the flow" crap DESPITE the fact that i told it would end badly, but somebody didn't want to listen.
[13:20] voodazzed: haha! Good point, but living with the "what if" crap would've been worse.
[13:20] ruhkel: true. Especially if I had to hear you boo hoo about it.
[13:20] voodazzed: Shaddap... sometimes you gotta leave your security bubble
[13:20] ruhkel: thats not my nature regardless of the situation
[13:21] ruhkel: shut up
[13:21] voodazzed: the point is, you gotta stop thinking and start doing
[13:21] voodazzed: then you'll either say you should've done this a long time ago or curse yourself for trying at all
[13:21] voodazzed: it's all a coin toss
[13:21] voodazzed: can't be afraid of where it lands
[13:22] ruhkel: I agree
[13:22] voodazzed: dang... I'm full of advice today
[13:22] voodazzed: Seriously, it annoys me how much you're underestimating yourself. You've worked your ass off, got a great career and make more money than god and you were smart enough to do a pre nup and not have kids with your dumbass ex husband. Yet you're acting like a frightend little school girl with this dude.
[13:22] ruhkel: jezus, vin... don't hold back or anything.
[13:23] voodazzed: not in my nature, but seriously, I didn't get any bad vibes from the dude and he's a HELL of a lot better than your ex-hubby.
[13:24] ruhkel: that's not saying much.
[13:25] voodazzed: No shit. Dude was a douchebag.
[13:25] ruhkel: Try being married to him for three years.
[13:25] voodazzed: bleh. Anyway, you obviously like the guy and he likes you so you'd better put out before he loses interest.
[13:26] ruhkel: Excuse me??
[13:27] voodazzed: Oh sure, guys respect a woman who gives it up right away.
[13:27] ruhkel: Ha.Then I'd better remember to wear my hoochiest oufit on our next date.
[13:27] voodazzed: There ya go!
[13:28] ruhkel: you're such a scumbag.
[13:28] ruhkel: but really, thanks for the pep talk, vin.
[13:29] voodazzed: No problem. just gimme some money. 20 grand should do.
[13:29] ruhkel: check's in the mail
[13:29] ruhkel: uh oh. I just saw one of my employees smile so I'd better put a stop to that!
[13:29] voodazzed: Oh, god forbid! Kill them now!
[13:29] ruhkel: Yeah, yeah. Good talking with ya vin. later.
[13:29] voodazzed: cya
Ugggh, hopefully I won't make a habit of.... helping my friends and loved ones.... I have a reputation to think of.
[13:14] voodazzed: very cool. should be funny fun fun
[13:14] voodazzed: and I'll be sure to say that when I see you
[13:14] voodazzed: as you pretend not to know me
[13:14] ruhkel: ass
[13:17] voodazzed: oh like you don't love it!
[13:17] voodazzed: muwhahaa
[13:17] ruhkel: I so doooo
[13:18] ruhkel: i am going to tell you ahead
[13:18] ruhkel: he is a temptation to me...or have I already told you that?
[13:18] ruhkel: I think that i have
[13:18] voodazzed: yeah, yeah. what's the problem then?
[13:18] ruhkel: it has caused me to chicken out before
[13:18] ruhkel: other times it has been my crazy schedule.
[13:18] voodazzed: oh. you didn't tell me that
[13:19] ruhkel: but there was a time when I was afraid
[13:19] voodazzed: afraid of what?
[13:19] ruhkel: him
[13:19] voodazzed: ???
[13:19] voodazzed: what are you yappin about??
[13:19] ruhkel: yeah.. if there will be a connection...will I behave...
[13:19] ruhkel: all that jazz
[13:20] voodazzed: oh lord. This is one of those situations where you shouldn't think so much.
[13:20] voodazzed: you gotta put all that out of your mind
[13:20] voodazzed: take a chance, within reason of course.
[13:20] voodazzed: just go with the flow and have fun
[13:20] voodazzed: otherwise you'll be all uptight and he'll think you're a crazy woman.
[13:20] ruhkel: thats the problem...I would
[13:20] ruhkel: and I remember hearing you bitch about relationships that end in disaster whenever you did that "go with the flow" crap DESPITE the fact that i told it would end badly, but somebody didn't want to listen.
[13:20] voodazzed: haha! Good point, but living with the "what if" crap would've been worse.
[13:20] ruhkel: true. Especially if I had to hear you boo hoo about it.
[13:20] voodazzed: Shaddap... sometimes you gotta leave your security bubble
[13:20] ruhkel: thats not my nature regardless of the situation
[13:21] ruhkel: shut up
[13:21] voodazzed: the point is, you gotta stop thinking and start doing
[13:21] voodazzed: then you'll either say you should've done this a long time ago or curse yourself for trying at all
[13:21] voodazzed: it's all a coin toss
[13:21] voodazzed: can't be afraid of where it lands
[13:22] ruhkel: I agree
[13:22] voodazzed: dang... I'm full of advice today
[13:22] voodazzed: Seriously, it annoys me how much you're underestimating yourself. You've worked your ass off, got a great career and make more money than god and you were smart enough to do a pre nup and not have kids with your dumbass ex husband. Yet you're acting like a frightend little school girl with this dude.
[13:22] ruhkel: jezus, vin... don't hold back or anything.
[13:23] voodazzed: not in my nature, but seriously, I didn't get any bad vibes from the dude and he's a HELL of a lot better than your ex-hubby.
[13:24] ruhkel: that's not saying much.
[13:25] voodazzed: No shit. Dude was a douchebag.
[13:25] ruhkel: Try being married to him for three years.
[13:25] voodazzed: bleh. Anyway, you obviously like the guy and he likes you so you'd better put out before he loses interest.
[13:26] ruhkel: Excuse me??
[13:27] voodazzed: Oh sure, guys respect a woman who gives it up right away.
[13:27] ruhkel: Ha.Then I'd better remember to wear my hoochiest oufit on our next date.
[13:27] voodazzed: There ya go!
[13:28] ruhkel: you're such a scumbag.
[13:28] ruhkel: but really, thanks for the pep talk, vin.
[13:29] voodazzed: No problem. just gimme some money. 20 grand should do.
[13:29] ruhkel: check's in the mail
[13:29] ruhkel: uh oh. I just saw one of my employees smile so I'd better put a stop to that!
[13:29] voodazzed: Oh, god forbid! Kill them now!
[13:29] ruhkel: Yeah, yeah. Good talking with ya vin. later.
[13:29] voodazzed: cya
Ugggh, hopefully I won't make a habit of.... helping my friends and loved ones.... I have a reputation to think of.
Wednesday, December 6, 2006
I done fucked up.
I missed my chance to see Gwar last night! I knew they were coming to town, but I just forgot about it! I've always wanted to go to a Gwar concert and see Paris Hilton get brutally murdered on stage and be sprayed and covered with sticky gore as I laugh my ass off while they murder the devil.... oh good times good times and I had a chance to experience it first hand, but NOOOO! My dumb ass was too busy with other things to remember a once in a lifetime chance like that.
I ended up seeing Happy Feet with Liz and it was a surprisingly good movie... just not as good as seeing jesus whacking off on stage and ejaculating on everyone.
I ended up seeing Happy Feet with Liz and it was a surprisingly good movie... just not as good as seeing jesus whacking off on stage and ejaculating on everyone.
Tuesday, December 5, 2006
Mystery porn
I recieved a mysterious porn vid in the mail yesterday and I don't even remember ordering it. At first I thought it was a mistake, but my name was on the package. Was it a joke perhaps? I checked my bank statement and everything matched up.
So here I am with this porno wondering where the hell it came from, then I looked closer. It starred Nina Hartley who has always been a personal fave of mine plus it was really cheap, so that pretty much confirmed that I had indeed ordered it.
True I've been busy as hell lately and I tend to lose track of time every now and then, but this is a first. In all likelyhood it probably happened when I got incredibly shitfaced on some Basil Hayden. I had trouble forming complete sentences for a few days after that so it would make sense if I didn't remember ordering cheap ass porn. Oh well.... at least it wasn't hardcore, hairy midget transgendered anal goat porn... then I'd be a little worried about my uninhibited alter ego.
So here I am with this porno wondering where the hell it came from, then I looked closer. It starred Nina Hartley who has always been a personal fave of mine plus it was really cheap, so that pretty much confirmed that I had indeed ordered it.
True I've been busy as hell lately and I tend to lose track of time every now and then, but this is a first. In all likelyhood it probably happened when I got incredibly shitfaced on some Basil Hayden. I had trouble forming complete sentences for a few days after that so it would make sense if I didn't remember ordering cheap ass porn. Oh well.... at least it wasn't hardcore, hairy midget transgendered anal goat porn... then I'd be a little worried about my uninhibited alter ego.
Sunday, December 3, 2006
Take me home, West Virginia
That is the title of a song written by John Denver and a couple of other people. I've heard it a couple of times before and thought it was a pretty cool song, but didn't make much out of it.
I found out that this is actually an immensely popular song worldwide, particularly in Japan... friggin' JAPAN. How in the world did some mountain song about rural Western Virginia become so popular in the land of the rising sun is beyond me!
The juxtposition nearly makes my mind explode, but it's not just Japan, it's also big in europe as well. Italy, Germany, France, wherever... people know the song. I would say Canadians knew the song if they weren't filthy sub humans (Hi, Kat!)
Funny thing is, I learned is that most of these people have no idea that this is a real place.
oh crap... now the damn song is in my head now.
Here are the lyrics if you're interested... or a foreigner
I found out that this is actually an immensely popular song worldwide, particularly in Japan... friggin' JAPAN. How in the world did some mountain song about rural Western Virginia become so popular in the land of the rising sun is beyond me!
The juxtposition nearly makes my mind explode, but it's not just Japan, it's also big in europe as well. Italy, Germany, France, wherever... people know the song. I would say Canadians knew the song if they weren't filthy sub humans (Hi, Kat!)
Funny thing is, I learned is that most of these people have no idea that this is a real place.
oh crap... now the damn song is in my head now.
Here are the lyrics if you're interested... or a foreigner
Almost heaven, West Virginia,
Blue Ridge Mountains
Shenandoah River.
Life is old there,
Older than the trees,
Younger than the mountains
Growin' like a breeze.
CHORUS
Country roads, take me home
To the place where I belong:
West Virginia, mountain momma,
Take me home, country roads.
All my memories gathered 'round her,
Miner's lady, stranger to blue water.
Dark and dusty, painted on the sky,
Misty taste of moonshine,
Teardrop in my eye.
CHORUS
Country roads, take me home
To the place I belong:
West Virginia, mountain momma,
Take me home, country roads.
I hear her voice, in the mornin' hour she calls me,
Radio reminds me of my home far away
And driving down the road I get a feeling
I should have been home yesterday, yesterday
CHORUS
Country roads, take me home
To the place where I belong:
West Virginia, mountain momma,
Take me home, country roads.
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