It's okay not to give a shit.

Okay so a chick I used to date is getting married in a couple of weeks. How do I know this? Because she called me and told me so after six freaking years of hearing absolutely nothing from her. How did she get my cell number? Well, that's the shitty thing about having mutual friends with an ex girlfriend. I'm sure they didn't see the harm in giving her my number, but that didn't stop me from chewing them out anyway.

So she starts telling me about the upcoming wedding, how she's feeling, where the honeymoon is going to be at and blah, blah, blah until finally I told her: "I DON'T CARE." I really didn't...any emotional ties I had for this woman died a long time ago. I don't feel an malice towards her, in fact I don't feel anything at all... I'm just numb.

Anyway, I told her good luck with the marriage and asked her politely not to call me again before hanging up.
Sure it might have seemed a little cold and although it wasn't the prettiest of break ups, I've had a lot worse. I just don't have an interest in rekindling any kind of relationship with this particular woman and I don't care enough to go through the motions of "civility".

I can't believe all the time I've wasted listening to people I barely know yap about things I don't care about and I make things worse by actually feigning interest simply because I did not want to appear rude because, after all it's what is socially expected of me.
Most of the time these same people did NOT return the favor.
I remember practically begging these people (like the aforementioned happy bride) to listen and respect what I had to say which is just ridiculous and again, a huge waste of my time.

Nowadays I only listen to people I truly care about... there's no "going through the motions" with them because I am truly interested in what transpires in their lives. I also know they feel the same about me, true it's a small inner circle, but that's all I need... fuck my social obligations.