Here we go again.

Well I had a talk with the girl I've been hung up over the past few months about the "casual" thing: I told her I thought the "casual relationship" was just a fancy way of saying "fuck buddies". She disagreed. She said that the casual relationship is not quite "official" but it's more than friends. Oookay...I told her to elaborate and she said basically it's like an official relationship without the pesky hassles of that commitment thing. I said so basically you're free to date whoever you want while in this "casual" relationship. She said yes, but she wasn't thinking about doing that. She also said if she DID that she would at least tell me about it first before she followed through (how thoughtful). She also said (again) that she liked me. I've pretty much poured my guts out to this girl for the past couple of months and exposed a level of affection that FEW have ever seen from me and pretty much put everything on the line, hail mary, all or nothing, leap of faith, let it ride,etc and the most I get in return is "I like you." Gee...thanks. She also said some things had happended and didn't bother telling me what.



She went on about fearing commitment and all that, but I pretty much got the message.





You know you always hear this bullshit about these women who want a nice normal relationship with no games and blah blah blah. My question is WHERE ARE THESE WOMEN? Why can't I meet any of them? All I want is a nice normal commited girlfriend. All I seem to get are "modified partnerships". Crap like fuck buddies, flings, booty calls, casual relationships, whatever. FUCK that.



I really wanted this girl to be that girlfriend, but I just have to accept the fact that she's just not interested in that kind of relationship, at least not with me (though I suspect there might be a third party involved. hmmm..)



My friends say I should just cut my losses and revive the "plan B project".



Ugh...why can't it ever be easy?